[Juls]

Dot,

What's going on hon? Are you detoxing right now? Have you ever been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia? I don't know if the would put on a psychiatric ward, but there is definitely something not right going on with you.

You need professional help for what's happening. You know you won't act on those thought, I've had homocidal feelings too, but feeling like people were out to get me.

If your are "losing it" and it can happen, you need to get help as soon as possible.

Do you have a private physician? You can call a mental health hot-line and talk to them and maybe get some referrals.

I'm worried about you, please keep us posted so we know what's going on. I'm sending hugs and [rayers your way.

Juls