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im feeling a bit...no, a lot...like my mental health is taking a nose dive. i feel paranoid again, and the technical word is, "homicidal" but in no way do i plan on shooting someone or hurting anyone.

this is part of how i felt when i detoxed. totally nutso and not trusting of anyone. ok, OF COURSE the wallpaper lady is not a serial killer...but then i still have that thought in the back of my mind saying, she's gonna try to kill my mom and steal all the silver. what a sick thought? and i dont want to tell anyone so im here. if i tell them they will probly send me to a nut house...maybe i need to go to a nut house???? i dont know.

please...if anyone has had a crystal meth addiction and can relate, please offer any reply. even if you dont have a crystal addiction. but it would be very helpful. i have some friends who quit one and a half years before me...on the same batch...lost it and have been on antipsychotics for some time.

i dont mean to scare anyone, shoot, im scaring myself! but i need experiences badly! so i know..i dont even know, but anything will be helpful im sure.