Breathe deep.
Take a step back.
There are things that we all don't understand, Paulos. Many things. Often I have to read things many times in order to understand them; sometimes, I still cannot. It's frustrating, yes, but, it's not the end. I simply move on to the next thing. Or, I take the time to learn what it is that I don't know so that I *can* understand what I have read. And that takes time and effort.
Who's Kirby?
Shalom!