5:01am I love Kirby and Kirby loves me. Sniff, I feel so stupid, dumb, and smart at the same time... I'm scared mentally I don't know what to do

I feel so confused, I read things and I don't understand them. I don't know what to do :| everything is too overwhelming.
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"Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh, and I will cry. Happiness I can not feel, and love to me is so unreal." Loony from Rings of Power