[sugErspun]

If the book describes insanity as "lack of proportion, of the ability to think straight", i.e. - no mental capacity to stop from taking the first drink, which sets off the cycle of craving. Then by saying "My thinking is straight and I seem to have proportion regarding this problem I have (alcoholism)." is accurate.

At step two - I am looking at a couple things: alcoholism (as the BB describes it) and unmanageability in my life being CHANGED by something that I might not fully understand (higher power). Have I witnessed something in others that might work for me?

Today - I know exactly what will happen if I take a drink, I will have another. I know that I was unable to avoid taking the first drink, no matter how hard I tried - until I made a decision at the third step based on a little willingness from the second step ~ that there is something out there, or in me (afterall - the book does say that we find god deep down inside) as I had witnessed it in others (those with whom the problem had been removed).

I don't tend to equate a return to sanity with the other promises of the book - but simply the fact that no longer will I take that first drink as long as my reliance is where it has to be.