I'm the only member amongst my group of friends that has an addiction problem and one day they basically told me to shape up or find new friends.
I shaped up and got clean and sober. I have a lot of friends in recovery but most of them are not in recovery. Some of them don't even drink or use drugs because they just choose not to. They are normal happy people.
I'm a happy person too. Lately I've been struggling with some members in the rooms just pestering me. They treat me like I'm not normal, like I should be going through some sort of crisis and if my life is not dramatic then I must be in denial.
I'm not saying that my life is perfect, but I am happy and some people's attitude towards my joyful deminure is really getting to me. It's almost as if they would feel better if I was miserable and neurotic.
I get the comments such as "Of course, Sarah is always happy, her life is perfect ... blablabla"
It's difficult for me because I can't relate to most people in the rooms; I had a great childhood, good education, love, friends ... I simply loved to party too darn much, and I would use drugs to stay awake on those long study nights, it wasn’t a bright thing to do. It got out of control.
I went to treatment and got my life back ... I'm happy. What is wrong with that? Why am I not OK (according to some) if I’m not going through some bouts of depression, or chaos?
I'm starting to feel different; my sponsor is really being supportive but she can't really relate to my situation either.
The only thing that is starting to affect my happiness is other people telling me that I can't be this happy unless I'm in denial.
Maybe I’m projecting a few people’s opinion onto the rest of the fellowship … maybe I need to change some of my friends and make new friends that will accept me the way that I am … happy … for now :praying