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Old 11-05-2008, 03:46 AM   #1 (permalink)
Tazman53
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I need to learn to deal better with my pride/ego, here is the issue, not major, but it does bug me, every time one of my sponsee's share I can not stop myself from thinking to myself that what my sponsee shares is a direct reflection of me and foolishly sit there wondering if folks who know I am sponsoring that guy are judging me by what my sponsee's share!

I know that it is my self centerdness and the only time I have ever had anyone say a thing to me negative about a sponsee was one time when one of my sponsee's share sounded as though he was giving a lecture instead of sharing his own ESH. I pulled him aside after the meeting and asked him what he would have thought if he had been a newcomer and heard his own share? He looked at me and said "Damn!!! I was giving a lecture instead of sharing my ES&H!" We both had a good laugh and the guy who said something to me about his share said "Did you talk to XXXXXX after that share?" I laughed and said "Yep, he knew he lectured the second I mentioned it to him.

Does anyone else feel discomfort when one of their sponsee's share? How do you all deal with it? I have been praying about it, I plan on talking to my sponsor about it even though I am pretty sure I know what he is going to say........ "Martin trust me it is not all about you and no one is keeping score or judging you by your sponsee's."
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