[Paulos]

Hi everyone. How's it going... that's good... my side is a bit confused...

My former stepfather who is on parole who has been living here in my house on the downstairs for 9 months, finally had a little trouble with parole and now the house is always like on lockdown, meaning the door upstairs that I go into my once free house is now always locked and I always have to use a key to merely get upstairs into my BATHROOM which was once his *including my grandfathers* but now the change was made... and now with parole rules and my grandfather's age it was bound to occur that the bathroom right next to my room on the bottom floor would be eventually... theirs.

So therefore, I had no choice, it was mandatory to give it up... but I'm having great difficulty giving it up in the mind... I'm so used to my own realm, my own bathroom, I've had enough bad things happen in the past few months, such as my Neopets account being lost, the Doctor saying those horrible things that put fear inside me, my everyday battle against myself, and so on... now everytime I want to merely use the bathroom I gotta run upstairs with a key, while it was always just right there at my doorstep... I was trying to keep my bathroom as long as I could, but now I've lost it... my mother has used quotes such as "Well when everyones dead it'll be the way you want it"... such a horrible thing to say, it's like a confusing conflict, I would never want everyone to be dead but I did not expect these rules to happen so powerfully and it seems the bathroom upstairs which was cleaned from their filth ... is in REVERSE compared to my old one, and the tub/shower is like... smaller on the right side so the shower curtain is ALWAYS on my arm...

I'm ocd, autistic, etc we all know that... I just have troubles adjusting to minor change, imagine major change... well I don't know what else to say except the famous thing... if I can't handle minor change like that, what the heck am I gonna do when it comes to major change. I think I'm in serious trouble.

-Paul