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iknowican · 10-30-2008, 05:32 AM

Thanks to all who replied. I to was extremely emotionally unstable and was able to cry at the drop of a hat when I was high , and the fact that before I started smoking I hadn't cried for over 8 years since I'm a very non emotional person , made it all the more surprising. But yes , the withdrawal symptoms during the first week where to close to unbearable , the worst part being that there was no rest. With any other pain/affliction I had encountered , I could go to sleep and in those few hours I would have relief , but with this , when my mind was racing 10000 km/h , I felt like I was going to throw up by just breathing and EVERYTHING made me either incredibly angry and/or incredibly sad with severe feelings of hopelessness and depression. The worst thing? I couldn't escape it. Nothing , short of smoking again would help me and because of this thought I felt trapped , no where to go. It takes a lot of strength,courage and will power to go through that and know in the back of your mind that all it takes is one hit from the bong to make those symptoms go away , but still fight through it. A lot. I hope that people who are reading this and are giving up ,draw inspiration from our posts and maintain that willpower and courage and fight through it. Sometimes when you smoke for long enough you FORGET what REAL life is , and you choose to go through life high because you forget how rewarding life can really be when it isn't obscured in a haze of smoke.

10-30-2008, 05:32 AM	#28 (permalink)
iknowican Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 7	Thanks to all who replied. I to was extremely emotionally unstable and was able to cry at the drop of a hat when I was high , and the fact that before I started smoking I hadn't cried for over 8 years since I'm a very non emotional person , made it all the more surprising. But yes , the withdrawal symptoms during the first week where to close to unbearable , the worst part being that there was no rest. With any other pain/affliction I had encountered , I could go to sleep and in those few hours I would have relief , but with this , when my mind was racing 10000 km/h , I felt like I was going to throw up by just breathing and EVERYTHING made me either incredibly angry and/or incredibly sad with severe feelings of hopelessness and depression. The worst thing? I couldn't escape it. Nothing , short of smoking again would help me and because of this thought I felt trapped , no where to go. It takes a lot of strength,courage and will power to go through that and know in the back of your mind that all it takes is one hit from the bong to make those symptoms go away , but still fight through it. A lot. I hope that people who are reading this and are giving up ,draw inspiration from our posts and maintain that willpower and courage and fight through it. Sometimes when you smoke for long enough you FORGET what REAL life is , and you choose to go through life high because you forget how rewarding life can really be when it isn't obscured in a haze of smoke.