[Liberty47]

Hi all, I'm a long time lurker, would introduce myself more and I apologize but I am so panicky right now I can barely type. I have been abusing up to 2100 mils of Soma a day since June- I don't want to say my sources but they are not from a doctor. I reached out to an addiction specialist who charged me $300 for the visit and told me I should start Suboxone due to my history of opiate addiction (I've been an addict for a long time.) She advised me how to taper the Somas, but told me that she wouldn't prescribe me any because it would be enabling my addiction and that I would just have to "use my resources that I've been using.) My "resources" have dried up and I will be cold turkeying it- she even agreed with me that it is probably I could have a seizure. I am so scared, I don't want to die, and I am so afraid another doctor will tell me the same thing. Please, does anyone have any suggestions? It seems that it borders on medical negligence what she is doing, I live in a small town and I have no where else to turn in my current panicky mind. Thanks and god bless.