[Cynay]

fWelcome.... so glad your here and trust me your not the only one with a broken picker...... I think I might have discovered the fix for a broken picker though......

Stop picking....

Here is what happened to me.... I always choose guys that were broken, wrong for me, Alcoholic, hard hearted.... you name it.... I have dated more losers then that weight loss program... but finally I got to the point that I was sooo fed up I had no choice but to figure out what was going wrong and the only comon thread in the whole story was ... Me...

That is when I started to work on myself and stop looking for a partner to be with. I started to figure out what type of guy I really wanted... wrote out all the things that were important to me... all the personality traits, character traits... everything.....

Once I had my list I quickly realized that the type of man I was looking for might not be attracted to me because I had alot of work to do on my recovery and myself in general. I wanted a man that was able to have dreams and goals... but I did not have any of my own. I wanted a man with a career that he loved and was a hard worker.... so I realized that there was alot I could do for myself in that department and started looking at careers and not jobs... I started testing and becoming the professional women that would attract a professional man. I wanted a man that could understand my recovery and if not join me at least no think Im crazy.... So I worked my program harder ..... and then I did the most amazing thing.

I let go. I gave it to God and just kept the focus on myself...

Today I will tell you I met the perfect man, he is not perfect ... but so far he is perfect for me and it was totally a Gift from God because I was not looking for him when it happened and to be honest the situation that we met in did not give me reason to think he would be anything more then friends. But as only God can do.... it happened.

Last weekend during a beautiful sunset at the Grand Canyon ... my Mr. Right got down on one knee and asked me to be his wife.

If there is anything to take from my story it would be.... Work on the only thing you can... You, be the type of women that will attract the type of man you seek and then let go and let God.