From a long term sufferer of my personal addiction which is codependancy and other addicted people, I have had depression for over half of my life (I am 28).
During my depression I have tried to abait the feeling by delving into my ''fix'' of controlling and being emotionally manipulative, avoiding responsibility, avoiding looking at myself.
I have taken substances to numb my overwhelming feeling, having falsly hoped that by finding a way to ignore the pain and supress it I would get through the days and feel better.
In all those years, nothing stopped my depression. It ebbed and flowed and some times where better than others.
Taking anti depressants helped me get through the low patches, helped me feel brighter, more able to cope with the feelings of low self worth, low self esteem, worthlessness etc. When I would begin to feel better I would be taken off the meds by my doctor.
However it always came back. Always
I know now that was because I never once in all that time, looked within me, dealt with my inner messages, my low self esteem. I never once used affirmations, positivity. I allowed myself to be blown around by every wind in my life, and looked to others to stabalise me. I never found my inner strength and convinced myself I had none.
Since having found the 12 steps, since having learnt to accept myself, take my own inventory and work on me, I have not been depressed and I have learnt how I can save myself and protect myself from the things that would push me back into the black depths of depression. I learnt to be me and I am wonderful!
From my es&h, I would say that no meds will take away your depression, it will help to make you feel better short term, but to truely heal yourself I would say that immersing your self in the 12 steps is by far the best way to go for long term lifetime healing. Also check out ''inner bonding''
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