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iknowican · 10-27-2008, 04:49 AM

Hi

First of all I would like to say that it is wonderful that this resource exists , where people can share thoughts , ideas and offer encouragement and support in recovery. I thank anyone who is taking the time to read this post.

For a year and a half I smoked marijuana everyday - heavily(about 2 g a day). The last year my life has been complete hell , I developed such a tolerance I stopped getting high , I wasn't smoking to feel high I was smoking to feel normal. While smoking I could hardly eat , I was anxious and paranoid all the time and was extremely irritable. And withOUT it all of the above symptoms where so much worse. I tried to stop once and relapsed and then on the 4th of October 2008 at 1:30am Id had enough. I didnt like the person I had become. I slammed my bong down and vowed never to touch it again...I knew if I could just get past the first week I could stop smoking since smoking wasnt a "habit" anymore , it was something I did so I could function semi-normally(eat,sleep,not be irritable,anxious and paranoid).

Anyway , I havn't touched the stuff since and after a week , most of the worse withdrawal symptoms went away and I started to feel great. It was as if I had a new life , things looked brighter and smelt better. I actually FELT like talking to people. Its like I was high , but by being sober. Because I was constantly high for a year and a half I forgot what being normal felt like and the clarity of sobriety was a high in itself.

Now comes my problem....its been 3 weeks and 3 days and God knows I dont feel like smoking and WILL never touch the stuff ever again. However that excitedness of being sober , has now faded and I seem to be getting slightly(nowhere as near as bad as before) paranoid , having many many dreams while I sleep( i heard this was common in the first week of quitting , however Im having more dreams now then in the first week - not nightmares , just alot of dreams so I dont get a good quality sleep) , I do however feel extremely irritable (still not as bad as the first week) and depressed.

My question....how long do these symptoms last - my appetite is 75% back , but at 3 weeks later I would of expected all of the symptoms to be gone. Im starting to get worried that weed may have permanantly made me this way , and I going to feel this way for the rest of my life , even if I never smoke weed again.

Ive heard that THC is fat soluble, and I have been going to the gym 5 times a week , from about 2 weeks ago. Im thinking that it may be because I am burning the fat and this is still releasing the THC into my blood - causing me to become anxious,a tad bit paranoid and depressed. Am I thinking correctly?

Either that or my worst fear - my brain is permanently damaged. Im extremely worried about this , can anyone out there help me , or offer some advice , or point me somewhere where i can get an answer to this.

I know its a long post , and much appreciated to anyone who replies

Thank you

10-27-2008, 04:49 AM	#1 (permalink)
iknowican Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 7	Marijuana withdrawal symptoms Hi First of all I would like to say that it is wonderful that this resource exists , where people can share thoughts , ideas and offer encouragement and support in recovery. I thank anyone who is taking the time to read this post. For a year and a half I smoked marijuana everyday - heavily(about 2 g a day). The last year my life has been complete hell , I developed such a tolerance I stopped getting high , I wasn't smoking to feel high I was smoking to feel normal. While smoking I could hardly eat , I was anxious and paranoid all the time and was extremely irritable. And withOUT it all of the above symptoms where so much worse. I tried to stop once and relapsed and then on the 4th of October 2008 at 1:30am Id had enough. I didnt like the person I had become. I slammed my bong down and vowed never to touch it again...I knew if I could just get past the first week I could stop smoking since smoking wasnt a "habit" anymore , it was something I did so I could function semi-normally(eat,sleep,not be irritable,anxious and paranoid). Anyway , I havn't touched the stuff since and after a week , most of the worse withdrawal symptoms went away and I started to feel great. It was as if I had a new life , things looked brighter and smelt better. I actually FELT like talking to people. Its like I was high , but by being sober. Because I was constantly high for a year and a half I forgot what being normal felt like and the clarity of sobriety was a high in itself. Now comes my problem....its been 3 weeks and 3 days and God knows I dont feel like smoking and WILL never touch the stuff ever again. However that excitedness of being sober , has now faded and I seem to be getting slightly(nowhere as near as bad as before) paranoid , having many many dreams while I sleep( i heard this was common in the first week of quitting , however Im having more dreams now then in the first week - not nightmares , just alot of dreams so I dont get a good quality sleep) , I do however feel extremely irritable (still not as bad as the first week) and depressed. My question....how long do these symptoms last - my appetite is 75% back , but at 3 weeks later I would of expected all of the symptoms to be gone. Im starting to get worried that weed may have permanantly made me this way , and I going to feel this way for the rest of my life , even if I never smoke weed again. Ive heard that THC is fat soluble, and I have been going to the gym 5 times a week , from about 2 weeks ago. Im thinking that it may be because I am burning the fat and this is still releasing the THC into my blood - causing me to become anxious,a tad bit paranoid and depressed. Am I thinking correctly? Either that or my worst fear - my brain is permanently damaged. Im extremely worried about this , can anyone out there help me , or offer some advice , or point me somewhere where i can get an answer to this. I know its a long post , and much appreciated to anyone who replies Thank you