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DJMH · 10-23-2008, 10:33 AM

Without going into too many details on the back story, for those who read this and do not yet know of me, my wife took the kids, the dog, the furniture and split on 9/26 because of my alcoholism.

About 10 years ago, I had some suicidal thoughts, but got over them fairly quickly.

On the 26th, I bought a bottle of Whiskey and a box of sleeping pills, called my sister in law (Wife's sister) and told her goodbye. A local police officer arrived in the evening for a well visit check, and he calmed me down to the point that I made it thru the night.

That was a Friday. By the next Friday I had suicidal thoughts again. At this point I had worked on my note, and started devising a plan. I have spent a lot of time online looking at sites dealing with death. They seem to be the only thing holding my curiousity these days. (Well that, and the big book of AA).. I am not going to list them here. Needless to say there is a lot on the web about suicide, death etc.

Yesterday I had a talk with an attorney my friend recommended to me and he told straight, that if I cant get an attorney hired before the 7th of November, I am screwed.

I love my children my mom and I cant stand the thought of this. However....I am very concerned that if I get an attorney, my finances are going to be shot and if I dont they will be worse. As her attorney will take me to the cleaners.

So.....what is the heck is wrong with me anyway? Freud.....are you out there?

10-23-2008, 10:33 AM	#1 (permalink)
DJMH Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 37	Am I Suicidal Or Is This Just Situational Depression? Without going into too many details on the back story, for those who read this and do not yet know of me, my wife took the kids, the dog, the furniture and split on 9/26 because of my alcoholism. About 10 years ago, I had some suicidal thoughts, but got over them fairly quickly. On the 26th, I bought a bottle of Whiskey and a box of sleeping pills, called my sister in law (Wife's sister) and told her goodbye. A local police officer arrived in the evening for a well visit check, and he calmed me down to the point that I made it thru the night. That was a Friday. By the next Friday I had suicidal thoughts again. At this point I had worked on my note, and started devising a plan. I have spent a lot of time online looking at sites dealing with death. They seem to be the only thing holding my curiousity these days. (Well that, and the big book of AA).. I am not going to list them here. Needless to say there is a lot on the web about suicide, death etc. Yesterday I had a talk with an attorney my friend recommended to me and he told straight, that if I cant get an attorney hired before the 7th of November, I am screwed. I love my children my mom and I cant stand the thought of this. However....I am very concerned that if I get an attorney, my finances are going to be shot and if I dont they will be worse. As her attorney will take me to the cleaners. So.....what is the heck is wrong with me anyway? Freud.....are you out there?