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DJMH · 10-23-2008, 10:33 AM

Witho*t going into too many details on the ba** story, for those who read this and do not yet *now of me, my wife too* the *ids, the dog, the f*rnit*re and split on 9/26 be*a*se of my al*oholism.

****t 10 years ago, I had some s*i*idal tho*ghts, b*t got over them fairly q*i**ly.

On the 26th, I bo*ght a bottle of Whis*ey and a box of sleeping pills, *alled my sister in law (Wife's sister) and told her goodbye. A lo*al poli*e offi*er arrived in the evening for a well visit *he**, and he *almed me down to the point that I made it thr* the night.

That was a Friday. By the next Friday I had s*i*idal tho*ghts again. At this point I had wor*ed on my note, and started devising a plan. I have spent a lot of time online loo*ing at sites dealing with death. They seem to be the only thing holding my **rio*sity these days. (Well that, and the big boo* of AA).. I am not going to list them here. Needless to say there is a lot on the web ****t s*i*ide, death et*.

Yesterday I had a tal* with an attorney my friend re*ommended to me and he told straight, that if I *ant get an attorney hired before the 7th of November, I am s*rewed.

I love my *hildren my mom and I *ant stand the tho*ght of this. However....I am very *on*erned that if I get an attorney, my finan*es are going to be shot and if I dont they will be worse. As her attorney will ta*e me to the *leaners.

So.....what is the he** is wrong with me anyway? Fre*d.....are yo* o*t there?

10-23-2008, 10:33 AM	#1 (permalink)
DJMH Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 37	*Am I Siidal Or Is This Jst Sitational Depression?* Withot going into too many details on the ba* story, for those who read this and do not yet now of me, my wife too the ids, the dog, the frnitre and split on 9/26 bease of my aloholism. ***t 10 years ago, I had some siidal thoghts, bt got over them fairly qi*ly. On the 26th, I boght a bottle of Whisey and a box of sleeping pills, alled my sister in law (Wife's sister) and told her goodbye. A loal polie offier arrived in the evening for a well visit he*, and he almed me down to the point that I made it thr* the night. That was a Friday. By the next Friday I had siidal thoghts again. At this point I had wored on my note, and started devising a plan. I have spent a lot of time online looing at sites dealing with death. They seem to be the only thing holding my riosity these days. (Well that, and the big boo* of AA).. I am not going to list them here. Needless to say there is a lot on the web ***t siide, death et. Yesterday I had a tal* with an attorney my friend reommended to me and he told straight, that if I ant get an attorney hired before the 7th of November, I am srewed. I love my hildren my mom and I ant stand the thoght of this. However....I am very onerned that if I get an attorney, my finanes are going to be shot and if I dont they will be worse. As her attorney will tae me to the leaners. So.....what is the he* is wrong with me anyway? Fred.....are yo o*t there?