[shutterbug]

Well, slowly, but surely...i'm starting to come back out of the dark a little. Having my Provigil is SUCH a big help with this. Man, if I could have had Provigil 4 years ago!!!

But I'm still sleeping too much. A post by a new person to the forum made me consciously think about my sleep apnea issues....so it's another motivator for me to get the boxes out of the back bedroom and set up my real bed and my sleep apnea machine. I also need a new mask...as mine is at least a couple years old now and doesn't stay on as well while i'm asleep.

I started to work on clearing out that room, but realized i needed to go to my GA meeting instead. I hadn't gone to the other 2 this week and nearly talked myself out of going today, but i made it.

It got me thinking about what possible things I can come up with to do with myself and my time when I'm craving walking into a casino?

This is all I've come up with so far:

- crotching (although i don't remember enough to actually do that right now)
- Play Station games
- reading (tired of reading)
- starting up a depression/bipolar support group in my town, which doesn't have a single one right now...(but i don't have enough energy for that just yet)
- I DON'T KNOW!!

Actually, a job would probably be the best thing right now, because of the structure i would have back in my life.

I don't know....i don't want to journal about it any more.