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I talked to my dad this morning. He basically told me he took the overdose of insulin to get his doctors to listen to him, he is seeeking stronger drugs. They have given him in one year alone, fentanyl patches, morphine, codeine, percocet methadone, vicodin an dultram, klonopin....He is an addict, has been all his life, but can really work the doctors, they have ran every test imaginable, and find nothing, and if you are in pain after all thiose meds, it's probably because of those meds. I have experienced worsened pain from using too mnay narcotics. They are running tests on his heart to make sure he didn't damage it, and will send him to the mental health unit for afew days. He will be okay, but one of these days his heart will not take it....I am praying for him, but it really has me quite me sad. My mother is trying to say she has breast cancer the last time I talked to her, and she doesn't know that. It just messes with my head, I will be strong, an dwork my own recovery...I cannot save them, I love them, I pray, what else is there to do?