Tammie, Lurkings, Cecilia and Brent,
Thanks for responding to me. It helped a lot, and I´m calming down now. It´s funny how some people can get under your skin, others leave you indifferent. Some shrinks say it means you see a part of yourself you don´t like in these people, but I don´t think that´s 100%. In some cases, people are just rude.
I share your opinion of the clergy, Brent and Tammie, and I rarely go to church. It´s too much hypocrisy in religion. Once in Germany I was chased out of the big cathedral in Cologne - guess what, by the clergy! They just rushed me and other innocent bystanders out of the church, screaming and shouting like wild animals. Incredible. And I´ve seen priests abuse children training to be bellboys by pinching them and even hitting them. When I said something I was chased out like a demon from hell.
Cecilia, I wish things were that easy. I have been ignoring her for a long time, but then she complained I was ignoring her and the group demanded a meeting for that purpose. It´s a no win situation, for sure, but I will do my best to have as little to do with her as possible. In spring, a clean break.
Lurkings, I used to hate confrontation, and I dislike them today. Or better yet, they bore me. Nobody wins. Sometimes it´s good to clear the air, but when there is hostility, I have noticed confrontations are of no use. It´s only if two people or a group REALLY wants to make amends and work on the problem, there can be use of it.
Brent, I had a similar thing with this woman earlier this winter. I was putting on my coat after a meeting and noticed she was staring at me. I smiled to her as if to ask: So? And she said: "You look so sad, my dear girl. You look like you´re having such a bad time."
"No," I said. "On the contrary, I feel quite well."
"You may not know it, but your sadness is engraved in your face. I have a second sight and I can see these things."
"Give me a break, " I said. "I´m trying to become a better person. This kind of talk makes me want to do bad things."
She just stared at me, and I said: "Hey! I was just kidding."
Then I said good night and left. What a nutcase, I thought - and think.
Gosh, I´m tired after the workday and I´m on the SOS lines tonight. I´m getting an early night. Thanks to you all!
