[Wolf_22]

I'm so sad and depressed.

Sometimes, I get so down that I just sit and stare into blankness. While I know I'm not fixing things by doing this, sometimes, it's the only solace I get when I'm attacked on so many fronts.

Take for instance, my degree. I graduated back in May of 2007. My major was Information Technology (IT), so you would think that I would have all sorts of opportunities for employment. My first career job ended miserably after a year. They terminated me due to performance. I had no idea what I was doing as I was a programmer programming in a very old and archaic programming technology.

During that horrible year, I was trying to get through severe depression as my girlfriend left me. Later on that year, I painfully discovered that she had moved on from seeing images of her being kissed by the new guy through the internet.

Fast forward to today, and I'm still unemployed. I've moved back to the town I graduated college from, and have been turned down for a job already. I'm going back to school, though, through the help of my wonderful grandmother this January to begin English Composition. As soon as I get registered for classes, I plan on getting some counseling from the counseling center. While I wish I could solve my problems on my own (which I think I can through time and constant application submission), I feel like it would be a healthy thing to do to talk to someone who is a licensed professional, ya know? I find it very difficult to do anything anymore. I mean, things that I enjoy, like making websites and stuff, I find little interest in because it somehow "emotionally reminds me" of my dreaded past experiences of missing my ex, going through hell with my past employer, etc.

Could someone please give me an internet hug!