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psyk0 · 10-06-2008, 10:48 PM

Just something scary I realised:

When I was still drinking I drank a lot, daily. I threw up every day, sometimes blood, I had to have alcohol in my bloodstream to feel "normal". I woke up with terrible anxiety every day, etc. etc.
This went on for years and years.

Here it is:

During those hellish drinking years I hardly EVER considered giving it up!

Once in a while I would think about moderating my drinking (this never worked) and would check out some internet pages about alcohol abuse, but for the rest I had just fully accepted the debilitating presence of alcohol in my life and kept drinking!

This, in hindsight, strikes me as really warped and strange. Truly sick.

10-06-2008, 10:48 PM	#1 (permalink)
psyk0 Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 64	Something scary I realised... Just something scary I realised: When I was still drinking I drank a lot, daily. I threw up every day, sometimes blood, I had to have alcohol in my bloodstream to feel "normal". I woke up with terrible anxiety every day, etc. etc. This went on for years and years. Here it is: During those hellish drinking years I hardly EVER considered giving it up! Once in a while I would think about moderating my drinking (this never worked) and would check out some internet pages about alcohol abuse, but for the rest I had just fully accepted the debilitating presence of alcohol in my life and kept drinking! This, in hindsight, strikes me as really warped and strange. Truly sick.