Deep breath, Paulos...
What exactly do you mean by "Everything is just falling apart."
Be specific and detailed in what the problem is.
Once the problem is laid out, it is easier in formulating a plan to make things better.
I'm sorry you are hurting so much.
But, you've come so far. And you have so much of which to be proud!
Continue along on your journey of sobriety. You're doing GREAT, even if, at times, it seems hard.
We're all here, rooting for you!!!
Shalom!