[Bamboozle]

Look, I'm not really sure where to put this down at...I don't have a diagnosed condition because I haven't been to a psychologist. I did counseling a few years back in school, but they didn't do much...

Anyway, one of the biggest reasons I drank so much was to self-medicate (and somewhere down the line it became an every day thing.). I'm getting scared now because I'm at two months sober and the last two weeks have been bad. I mean, nothing disastrous happened, but I cannot control my emotions.

I've had bad days when stopping before, but this is going on two weeks running. I've had more mood swings than normal lately. I woke up this morning feeling depressed when I had no good reason to be. It changed to anger, then happiness, then anger, then I was somewhat okay, then went to a little depressed again...

...I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster...not a mega one, but enough of one to prevent me from doing things I need to get done. I'm anxious and scared. I'm tired of this. I hope it stops soon. I'm not sure what I'm looking for here in this forum. I'm hoping I'll stay sober for at least one more day--My sobriety feels like it's slipping by...I'm afraid to fall back into drinking again...but I can see it coming.

There is absolutely no way I can go to the doctor for this one because I don't have insurance and have no way to pay (because I'm quitting my job--I don't know how long I'll be jobless for...I just couldn't do it anymore).