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Thank you sugah. I also lived with no pain meds until I couldn't do it anymore. I had a strict "no drugs" policy but time cured that.
I think you touched an issue for me. I do not ask for help. I'm not sure if it's a pride thing for me and that it shows I am weak so I tough it out.
My pain management dr is the one doing the work up but it is a scary thing to go through alone. I'm scared what they are going to find. Having three children and this issue do not go hand in hand. I am all they have.
I'm finding that things are more and more uncomfortable as the years go by and things are becoming a chore. Since living with an alcoholic I worry about being on higher pain meds and becoming addicted so I do not go up higher on my medicine. That's the tricky part. I learned on my own that our bodies build up a tolerance. No one told me that. I had my first withdrawl off of codience and it was not fun and that's what made me go down in my medicine and never go up any higher.
I really do appreciate the support. It's nice to know I am not alone. I know everyone's experiences are different and I am finding that even the same back issue affect people in different ways.
I just want the best possible quality of life as I can so that I can give my children what they need.
Years ago I laid down cigerettes and no drinking (at all) I'm pretty proud of myself for that. I even had my ah who was abusive get out of the house. Now it's time to take care of me.
I've already learned a ton from the sticky at the top. I've been reading stories here as well. I want to be young again.
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