KMMK - my heart and gut also tell me that my ex really loved me ... and I'm having a hard time imagining that a love as deep as I felt we had could so quickly erode to the point where he won't even talk to me and now has a new girlfriend. I thought our love would last forever ... and I think that is part of what is making it so hard for me right now ... I feel that our story isn't over ... I feel connected to him still ... but I can't live like this ... and I wish he could see that the things I've had to do were FORCED upon me by his choices ... I had NO other choice but to take care of myself and let him be responsible for his own actions or I would have ended up homeless ... and he can't seem to see that part right now.