ps...oddly enough as this sounds...and strange and bizarre as it sounds..
i know that he did love me ..alot...but the disease had more power than the love.
I dont think that because an A behaves selfishly, and as the disease would typically dictate , does it devalue that they did have feelings for us..that were genuine and true.
i know that with my whole heart , soul and gut..that love was there and present..
which is why it was even more shocking and painful as the disease and associated acting out behaviors progressed.
it gets to a point..that all that matters is the addiction..the drug..the high..
the isolating...and not having that interfered with by anyone...children, loved ones..
pets..
jobs..
responsibilities.
just my experience..
Addiction supersedes..even love..and loved ones..
They make promises..and might have the best of "intentions" but as long as they are using...it is useless.
words/ not actions....= empty promises..