[RufusACanal]

As I wrote my last Fourth Step inventory, I realized that through the teachings of other members, that my soul was sick. Resentments and self-pity propelled me through life and the light of the Spirit rarely reached me. Until I was ready to pray for others who I resented the way I prayed for myself, I would remain sick in spirit. God is not an errand boy and when I start each new contact with Him, I ask for the joy, hope and love for those with whom I disagree with in life by His will not mine. It works if I am first willing, diligent and sincere. Self-righteous indignation will only damage my soul and return me to the pain of the past.