[scorpiogirl]

Okay guys, I have been in recovery for a very long time and still to this day, struggle with the God concept.

Anytime you mention that to someone in my meetings or bring it up in your share, some of the comments I get are, "you don't have to believe", 'God either is or He (?) isn't", "you can take it piecemeal at a time", and a variety of other comments, including being told that the Big Book doesn't promote you to believe.

I beg to differ. True, it does say you don't have to believe yet, it goes on in MANY, many places that in order to stay sober you must find a Higher Power or God. In the abc's in Chapter 5 of How it Works it clearly says, "God could or would of HE were sought". Sounds pretty definitive to me!

Now I ask you, which is it? In my early sobriety, I really struggled with it bad - cringing everytime I heard the word God. During the next several years, I calmed down about it and sometimes just acted as if. Lately (last year and half or so), I am starting to cringe again when anyone mentions giving credit to "God" and/or relying on HIM, I want to either run out of the room screaming or I want to shout sitting right in my chair. "Why do youuuu people profess that it has to be a God of your understanding? Whyyyy? The program teaches us we don't have to believe yet, it reeks everywhere!"

Can you guys help me out? Not sure what I want to hear back about so, let'er rip! I checked out the other alternative recovery programs, SMART Recovery and Rational Recovery and well, none of them seemed to fit very well and at least, AA is all over the place.