[ihatethis]

Done... there is nothing at all wrong with what you've said. Nothing at all. I have nothing but kind thoughts for you. For myself however.... I just didn't want any of you to think I was being selfish for thinking about how this was effecting me. I'm not the point in this. I have always had the bad habit of putting thoughts out there, weither I believe them or not, and putting them together while they're outside of me. I just feel like no matter what I do, no matter how logically I think, I still do the wrong thing. I'll do my best to work on it. I don't know where to go with this. But I have an appointment next Wednesday at 5. And since I'm finally bawling while I type... it's probably a good thing.

I do feel bad. I came here because of a stupid addict man... that I love, but he loves drugs more. But I'll admit that I got connect to many of you and so I thought to post here. However many are dealing with addict lovers, sisters, brothers, children and this is way off topic. I just don't know where else to go. So here I am.