Jules, I don't know if this helps but I was once told the ability to feel sadness was equal to the ability to feel joy. Does that make sense to you? As sad as I sometimes gets, I can feel the same degree of joy now. I think it takes a while to get the body chemicals back into some kind of balance after all the alcohol was poured in.
I once pranced through a very nice restaurant with the skirt of my very cute dress tucked into my panty hose! I was sober! Everyone was staring and I thought it was because I was looking so extra sassy! LOL My friends were peeing their pants watching me strut along!
I was at first embarrassed to the ground! Luckily, Rule 62 kicked in and I was able to laugh. I laughed really long and hard. It felt good! Best laugh I'd had in years.
I don't know why I needed to tell you that. I guess because it still makes me laugh just to remember it.
Much love to you and extra hugs!
Lenina