hmm--isn't it better that "everybody" knows that you are a recovering addict in NA than that you are an addict, which is what will eventually come out if you keep using opiates. It all comes out in the wash. And NA is an anonymous program. Do you, for instance, know who all goes to it?
You need help, my friend, NA, and an addictionologist. Your shrink might not even be qualified to treat your addiction. Mine isn't. I go to a shrink and an addictionologist. And they both know about each other so the meds won't "clash." Suboxone was, for me, a miracle drug.
Everyone I know who beat addiction had help. It's so hard to recover alone. And there is just no reason to try to do it alone. I think that NA will be a surprise to you if you try it.
KJ