[Biscuits]

Hi everyone

I haven't been here in such a long time and i have missed it but at the same time i have needed time to go through what HP feels i need to go through. Emotionally i am wrecked, there has been alot of upset within my family and i have felt very low and sometimes just clinging onto my program rather than working it.

Although i have not binged i have on occasion been bulimic due to not sticking to my food plan. My food has been up and down although i have not turned back to the compulsive behaviour around it i have not eaten healthily at times, wanting to rebel and seek comfort in foods that once filled the void in my life. I know that this is a slippery road to relapse and feel that if i don't seek help then i may lose it altogether.

I am at the moment struggling to stay within the OA rooms as i feel there is no guidance for me, our meetings are very small with very few long time abstainers. I know there is nowhere else to go but i don't get from it what i used to, i used to love being at meetings and giving service but right now i am struggling to keep the enthusiasm i once had.

Anyhow i just wanted to make contact and reach out, i will check in later when i have more time as i am going back to work today after the long summer break.