[Tazman53]

So many I feel misunderstand being powerless over alcohol, even when I was in that mode of insanity when the thoughts in my head justifying a drink were spinning wildly, I still maintained a degree of power over alcohol, I still had a chance of maintaining power by not taking that drink, but if I gave into the insane thoughts in my head and had that drink, then I became powerless over alcohol once again.

First I had to admit and know to the very core of my being that once alcohol was in my system I lost any and all power I may have had over alcohol before it was in my system!!!

Once I had that first step firmly ingrained into my very soul, then the second thing I had to do was come to believe that a Power greater then I could restore me to sanity to where the insane thoughts would not lead me to drink again and lose any and all power I may have had over alcohol before it was in my system!!!

Once I came to beleive, I turned my will and my life over to the care of that Power. As I progressed in the rest of the steps once I reached step 10 as promised in the BB, sanity did return and as long as I maintain my spiritual condition in a fit condition by applying to the best of my ability all of the steps in all aspects of my life I maintain my sanity. I have given God (What I call my HP) my will and my life to care for, included in that is the insanity that used to led me to that first drink resulting in me being powerless over alcohol.

As long as my will and my life is in the care of God, I have no fear of that insanity and powerlessness returning, but if I make the decision to turn my back on God's care for my will and my life, that insanity will slowly return and the odds of me once again picking up that first drink and becoming powerless again will return.

Great share Nandm, thanks for letting me share as well.