| Mystified
I've got several very, very important things to take care of- financial, professional, scary things. SR is the only place I can seem to communicate with anyone due to anxiety. I feel paralyzed. If I get an email, I feel this crazy sense of dread... like when I open it I'll read some shattering news, some massive criticism. It takes me hours to be able to open it, meanwhile I just keep looking at the d@mn inbox. The thing is I know I haven't done anything earthendingly wrong. I've fallen behind on my master's thesis, but thinking realistically, I'm not the only grad student in the world to get behind schedule. However I need to move forward some. I need to communicate with my advisor but I'm so frightened of what she might say I haven't brought myself to do it yet.
I need to hurry up and post this because as I think about responses I might get, I become more anxious. This is very tiring.
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