[NOMOMERLOTMAMMA]

Good morning!

Blech. It makes me sad that you had to deal with that as a child. That said, here goes:

Please don't get rid of your sponsor. I do believe that if you came to me with as a sponsee with what you've just shared, I would have to ask you to put your Mom on your resentment list. (did you do that?). It's extremely difficult to see your part when you've been so hurt, but have you tried to do that?

I have a few difficult people that were on my resentment list, and are on my amends list as well. What my sponsor has told me to do is to write out the amends to that person, it doesn't mean I'll ever have to do the formal amends, but I'm writing on all the folks on my resentment list. You might be surprised that once you do this, your resentment will dissipate. Maybe just being a better Mom to your kids will be your amends.

Nobody is asking for a feel good ending like in the movies for this, I'm sure your sponsor just wants you to get over this huge resentment so that you can grow and not let it continue to fester. These are the reasons why we used/drank. Ya gotta get rid of em.

PS: I'm a child of an alcoholic Mom too..