Mykl: I'm not dead either Bro. I'm still alive, woke up sober this morning and thanked the God of my understanding for another day. I too am happily married, my bills are sorta kinda up to date and Annie is running like a dream. I too, suffered mightily through the aforementioned conflict. I pray this forum will resurrect. I firmly believe what it says in my Big Book, that their ain't a darn thing that happens in my God's world that is a mistake. I also believe that if I don't stand for what I believe, then I will fall for everything. I pray that it is my God's will to heal all the wounded hearts out there and bring us all back together in this forum, following the principles of 12 step recovery. Glad you started a new post Jazzed. Just to let you know of the fun I'm having this summer, here is a pic of me as a first time kayak pilot up on Lake Supoerior. My lovbely wife and I spent a wonderfull week up there, in a log cabin. It was mighty fine. Thank God for A.A......