To all of the parents with AK's I apologize. I didn't mean to offend any of you. With my AH and the comment about his dad "not being bothered"- his dad has really never been there for him. I'm sorry if I touched a nerve with any of you.
Thank you so much for all of your responses and for the "in your face" truth that I desperately need. I realize that I went from "frantic" at 9 am to "it's ok, it is under control" by 10 pm. That has pretty much been my life for a while now. All the while caring for 2 kids, being buried at work, cooking dinner, doing laundry and coaching soccer.
I know you are all right - detach, detach, detach. Thank you for being there for me yesterday and please don't give up on me yet.