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When I look in the mirror and see this body, my ego (monkey) mind tries to convince me that is who I am.

I’m just this body, endlessly hoping beyond hope that I do have a spirit and that my life is not meaningless. Is this all there is? Trampling through life, filling this emptiness with physical experiences, one after another trying to fill the void, will I be fulfilled the day they dig the hole and cover me up? Will I have gotten all I needed to be happy in this life?
Will I be gone forever….no more me?

When I look in the mirror and consider there’s more to me then this body and ask, “who am I ?”, I’m a spirit, a soul, residing in this body but for a short while.

Sobriety offers me a glimpse of who I really am. This spirit finds peace in being a helpful and useful human being. I see God around me all the time because I choose too. That’s really all it is, a choice that I make repeatedly everyday. I can choose to see things differently.

Is this emptiness a curse brought on by the reality of a pointless life? Or is this feeling of emptiness a blessing, just my creators’ way of letting me know that I’m living a lie?

This emptiness only has the value I choose to give it.

Gods Peace