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Pony:
I have been going through the grieving and loss process and food has taken a huge back seat. I am not doing as well as Cali did through her time of it....
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(((((all)))))
I am so sorry if anyone feels abandoned....
I hate myself right now, that's why I am not here!! I found out last week that my surrogate dad is dying.....he has cancer and was given a two year flag.....
I HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW..................................
I, on and off for 6 days, ate sweets.............................
today is day one for me, I have been free today...................
I "controlled" my eating for 5 months........I "sailed" through my dad's death........
I haven't truly delt with it...I see this clearly now that another father figure in my life faces this......
HE is going through this, NOT ME......I must act with grace and dignity..........
If I EVER NEEDED HELP IT'S NOW................
I see now that the only reason I want to "stop" doing things that are working for me, is when I am on the WRONG TRACK.......I have messages in my mail box but for some reason I can't access them on this work computer.....
please forgive me, I'm sorry....
i'm a mess....