Congratulations on 39 days, Paulos!!!
That is something you *should* take pride in!!!
I'm sorry you're having a difficult time. I know that it can be overwhelming.
Don't feel bad about coming here and talking about it. That's *why* we're here!
And, yes, you've given back, too.
I'm glad that you're getting assistance. That's a big load off your shoulders, isn't it? So many people have no help paying for their medical problems, and need it, but, aren't "qualified" for whatever reason. So, you must feel a good sense of relief about that issue, yes?
Remember, try not to worry about the future. We make the best plans possible, and that's all we can do. The rest is out of our hands.
Shalom!