[Juls]

Wow Mamabear,

That is really a feast. Seven fishes, does that represent something, or you just like fish. What kinds, and how do you prepare them. The picture of your dad playing Santa is just so wonderful. I know the children just love it, and it must bring so much joy and happiness to them.

I really like the idea of having friends over like that too. It doesn't matter if they are not blood related, family to me is also the people we love and care about and share these special times with is what I think.

I'm sorry to hear that your son is struggling with his depression. It must be so hard for you to watch. As mothers and fathers we hurt when our children hurt. We want to make everything right for them, and make the pain go away.

My daughter really enjoyed her christmas and her gifts. She brings so much light into my life. She says things like, "it's not getting presents that is important, it's sharing love and being with family that really counts." This from a seven year old. Sometimes she seems so wise beyond her years.

I know how proud you feel of your own daughter, and even though your son is struggling I know you feel very proud of him also. You are a terrific mother Mamabear. So strong and brave. Learning to let go when your instincts tell you to to try and hold on tight. One thing that is good is that we are clean and sober so we can try to be the best parents we can, and give the best to our children that we can. It doesn't mean we have to be perfect, or that our children have to be perfect. Letting our children be who they are and learn how to make their way in the world, even when they have to bump into walls and fall sometimes takes alot of courage and strength. Many parents are unable to do that.

Lilya, yes I agree that suffering is optional, but you know what I meant. LOL

Tammie, my mother used to play those kinds of "games" too. I will pray for her also that she is able to find peace.

Juls