SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information - View Single Post - Doctor, Doctor

lizw · 07-18-2008, 11:14 PM

I still feel a slight 'irk' from the way I carried on at my doctors over a month ago, even though I apologised when I went back a week later and he took it all quite gracefully.

I really related to what you said about feeling uncomfortable about asking to change. Being sick, I have learnt how awful I am at articulating how I feel and what is wrong. It is like all my 'self preservation wiring' is bung.

Over the last 6 months I have only just learnt how to comfort myself when I am not well, instead of expecting someone else to do it.

Dunno if anyone else has struggled with this kind of thing. I believe it comes from growing up in a crazy family and experincing abuse of ever kind as a child instead of learning how to look after myself, I learnt how to abuse myself.

That being said I went to bed late last night after watching TV and someone I sponsor, who has just left their addict husband and is staying in a shelter, rang me early this morning and woke me up.

So I am going to go take it easy for the rest of the day/night! I think DVD's and takeaways are on the menu...

:ghug2

07-18-2008, 11:14 PM	#3 (permalink)
lizw God's Kid Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: New Zealand Posts: 1,561	Is nice to know I still feel a slight 'irk' from the way I carried on at my doctors over a month ago, even though I apologised when I went back a week later and he took it all quite gracefully. I really related to what you said about feeling uncomfortable about asking to change. Being sick, I have learnt how awful I am at articulating how I feel and what is wrong. It is like all my 'self preservation wiring' is bung. Over the last 6 months I have only just learnt how to comfort myself when I am not well, instead of expecting someone else to do it. Dunno if anyone else has struggled with this kind of thing. I believe it comes from growing up in a crazy family and experincing abuse of ever kind as a child instead of learning how to look after myself, I learnt how to abuse myself. That being said I went to bed late last night after watching TV and someone I sponsor, who has just left their addict husband and is staying in a shelter, rang me early this morning and woke me up. So I am going to go take it easy for the rest of the day/night! I think DVD's and takeaways are on the menu... :ghug2 __________________ ....blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the children of God.