Annoyed...
My sister found out earlier this week that I'm taking Wellbutrin. I jokingly told her that the best part was that my appetite was diminishing drastically, and pointed out that my pants were starting to fit a little better. I made a point to ask her to keep this between us, though, because I didn't really want my parents to know just yet.
So, of course, as soon as I got home, my dad was calling me, saying "you sure do look like you've lost weight..." I thought maybe it was because the pants were a little baggy, but they've always been a little baggy later in the day because they stretch out, so I just laughed and said no, that those pants were just not cut for my body, and that actually the doctor told me last week that I had gained 2 pounds. He dropped it and all was well.
Well today mom calls me, and the first thing she says is "you sure do look like you've lost weight..." Oh really?!? And she continues, saying, "yeah, your sister even noticed it the other day." UGH!!!
So she definitely told them. I can tell, because my mom thinks she's super manipulative like that, but she always gives away just too much info. Not to mention that I've learned her patterns on how she tries to "slip" something into a conversation to get info back out... I've seen it a million times. It's no use telling her that I know what she's doing when this happens, though, because she gets defensive and denies it and it causes a big fight.
And the thing of it is, I don't know why I don't want them to know. Maybe it's because I know that they are codependants, and no offense but I really don't want them smothering me about this. Or maybe it's because my last depressive episode was triggered by a fight between me and my mom. But whatever the reason, now they know, and I still don't want to talk to them about it, so I'm not acknowledging it to them.
I'm sure it hurts their feelings, so now I get to feel guilty. But at the same time, why should I have to talk to them about it?
Am I out of line here???
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