Old 07-15-2008, 09:43 AM
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jodyjody
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I was thinking about this. I've never had to quit alcohol so I can't really answer this question. But I've always thought it would be so much harder to deal with abstaining from alcohol because it's in your face all the time.

But then I was thinking about my way of manipulating my mind. I could tell myself that since I had no pills available to me it wasn't really my choice and so it wasn't fair because the "one day at a time" wasn't pertaining to me....it was by default. So...if I could just get a hold of some pills THEN I would be the one to make the choice to not take any that day and it would mean more.
So....I would do what it took (urgent care, medicine cabinet lurking....whatever) and once I finally got a hold of a bottle of pills it was my choice. Of course I would choose to take them since I went to so much trouble to get them!!!!

Man i know how to mess with my own head.
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