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sobergirl77 · 07-15-2008, 03:56 AM

I had surrendered...

Then that ridiculous mental obsession, the "voice", started sneaking its way back in. Gradually.

I am/was confused, because I had completely surrendered on my knees to God, begging him to help me stop drinking. Begging him to take make the obsession go away and to take away my self-will. I felt the release and cleansing and the peace. I knew He had heard me.

Yet I found myself roaring drunk again within a few days.

I just don't know anymore. I'm holding out for the promises of doing the steps, there just isn't anything else I can do at this point.

07-15-2008, 03:56 AM	#7 (permalink)
sobergirl77 Finally Sober Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Oklahoma Posts: 381	I had surrendered... Then that ridiculous mental obsession, the "voice", started sneaking its way back in. Gradually. I am/was confused, because I had completely surrendered on my knees to God, begging him to help me stop drinking. Begging him to take make the obsession go away and to take away my self-will. I felt the release and cleansing and the peace. I knew He had heard me. Yet I found myself roaring drunk again within a few days. I just don't know anymore. I'm holding out for the promises of doing the steps, there just isn't anything else I can do at this point. __________________ I took my last drink at 9pm CST on May 24th, 2011.