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Originally Posted by sobergirl77

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Question one is, am I qualified in doing my 4th step if I keep relapsing? I have done my first three steps repeatedly. I ask for God's will in my life most mornings.

Yes, you are qualified to do a 4th Step. Anyone can work the Steps. In fact working them may be what keeps you from relapsing. In the early days of AA people worked through the Steps promptly sometimes within a matter of days.

Secondly, if I don't trust my current sponsor with my 4th or 5th step (and I have other sponsors picked out for those steps, not my own), should I just let go of my current sponsor? She has gossiped about me behind my back to other women and hasn't been consistent in much that she has said. So obviously I don't trust her with my innermost emotional information and/or life history.

IMHO you can change sponsors at any time. A sponsor is supposed to be someone who can guide you in the program of AA and working the Steps. If you can not trust the person or if they do not have the qualities you are seeking then you have every right to change and find someone who does. You can also do a 5th Step with someone other than your sponsor if you choose. The BB doesn't say you have to do it with your sponsor. Just another human being and your HP. I do feel that you should not delay doing your 5th Step because you do not trust your current sponsor.

It is great you are seeking information and working on applying the program to your life. There is some good information in the Step Study section of this forum you might check out. Some good stuff from Sandy Beach on each of the Steps that are well worth the listen. Keep up the great work.