[sobergirl77]

I have two questions for people who have been in the AA program and worked the steps...

Tomorrow (Tuesday), I am going to be completing my 4th step with a sponsor. I have already done all the paperwork and did the thinking/praying... the resentments, fears and sex inventory. So I will be going over it with this woman tomorrow who doesn't sponsor me, but sponsors several other women.

Now, I have two questions. First of all, I have been unable to stay sober for more than 10 to 13 days at a time since I entered the program. My last "relapse" was very recent. I want very badly to get through the steps because so many people say that it removes the mental obsession. Nothing so far has removed it for me - calling women, going to 2 meetings a day, praying, service work, etc. Nothing. So I am hoping that the promise of the steps will work.

Question one is, am I qualified in doing my 4th step if I keep relapsing? I have done my first three steps repeatedly. I ask for God's will in my life most mornings.

Secondly, if I don't trust my current sponsor with my 4th or 5th step (and I have other sponsors picked out for those steps, not my own), should I just let go of my current sponsor? She has gossiped about me behind my back to other women and hasn't been consistent in much that she has said. So obviously I don't trust her with my innermost emotional information and/or life history.

Thanks in advance for you guys' thoughts on this!