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cali · 07-09-2008, 07:01 PM

odaat-Sheila-ananda
just keep coming back guys!! I would put time together, then "go out"..that was my pattern for years-with alcohol, ciggs, food.
I used to go back to smoking because I rationalized that it was better than drinking..
I don't know where I "turned the corner" but somehow I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that there is no rationalizing anything about the drinking and smoking. I know I have truly surrendered to those two substances (daily reprieve based on working my program) but food items may just be a bit trickier for me---for I don't know how long...right now I certainly would not dare "cheat" because of the near-future event looming--but it's the after-lash that I think about...my true test of "fitness" will show itself sfter this weekend..I want to believe in myself and know that I will be OK and won't go back to the bad eating habits of the past.....I just don't live that way anymore.

BUT again, it's a daily reprieve for me...I have to work at it--and boy sometimes it's harder than others not to simply "notice" a beautiful OS LOL
Good night all!

07-09-2008, 07:01 PM	#352 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	odaat-Sheila-ananda just keep coming back guys!! I would put time together, then "go out"..that was my pattern for years-with alcohol, ciggs, food. I used to go back to smoking because I rationalized that it was better than drinking.. I don't know where I "turned the corner" but somehow I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that there is no rationalizing anything about the drinking and smoking. I know I have truly surrendered to those two substances (daily reprieve based on working my program) but food items may just be a bit trickier for me---for I don't know how long...right now I certainly would not dare "cheat" because of the near-future event looming--but it's the after-lash that I think about...my true test of "fitness" will show itself sfter this weekend..I want to believe in myself and know that I will be OK and won't go back to the bad eating habits of the past.....I just don't live that way anymore. BUT again, it's a daily reprieve for me...I have to work at it--and boy sometimes it's harder than others not to simply "notice" a beautiful OS LOL Good night all! __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!