[lizw]

I think as someone else has said, the first few years I was sober I naively did some amazing things, a few of them people told me not to do but I did them anyway. A few I suffered for and a few I didn't.

Something I have learnt about myself (and maybe all alkies are a bit like this) is I am the type of person who, once convinced I want to do something nothing will change my mind. No matter how many people tell me it is impossible, I still give it ago anyway. I'm talking helathy things here not sick, weirdo things.

I would probably go so far to say I have erred on the side of recklessness, at times.

However for health reasons, these days, I am learning to make a decision, make a plan then attempt to do it. Rather than make a decision then attempted to do it!!

Faith is fear that's said it's prayers and all that.

So I try not to limit myself but at the same time try and have at least some sane plan as to how I am going to achive what I am hoping/working for. God does expect me to do some of the work, even if it is just showing up.