Yeah I guess it does make sense but having a constant reminder *autism and my own inabilities* and always being overwhelmed makes me scared, and feeling worthless
so living in the present is kind of difficult I guess and then thinking of the future can make me feel even worse...
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"Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh, and I will cry. Happiness I can not feel, and love to me is so unreal." Loony from Rings of Power
