Hi friends,
I just wanted to share that throughout all the problems I've had, some of them even related to stuff that happened in NA, my home group has been awesome once again.
I was literally in tears at the last NA meeting most of my fellow home group members usually go to, a midnight meeting. I was at the end of my rope when I showed up. I didn't say anything, but I made it through the meeting, controlled the tears, and felt a little better from just being there.
But it wasn't over, some of my "homies" pulled me up and took me to an all-night diner. They pulled out everything that I was stressed about, and we picked it apart. I layed it all on the table, and got some great advice. What blew me away, was that they remembered my past shares, my story, and they were able to relate it to the current problems.
For instance, they remembered that I recently fired a sponsor, and didn't have a new one. And that the b/f I cried about missing hadn't wanted me going to the meetings and had been drinking heavily when I broke up with him a couple weeks ago.
They didn't cut me any slack, I had some hard but real suggestions to work on some things. But the acceptance and the unconditional love was incredibly healing. I made it through another day. I have to remember that all that is there waiting for me the next time I feel like I'm ready to use.
KJ