It was taught 2 Me that is the Holy
Spirit who is the consoler then Why? I can't feel God's Love
or forgiveness, or nevertheless his consoler, (the Holy Spirit)
I bee thinking that God Doesn't accept me, or like me,
every time I pass for prayer the Holy Spirit would ministrade
to everybody sinners, people that are stable in there spirit,
people that are playing with him,It would Talk in a gentle, and mercy full way, then Why??? when I pass there is this silence no ministration, no comforting words of healing no don't give up, don't quit,
Has he gave up on me is he mad at me I can't understand allot I'm even hurt by this silent from God he will ministrade, to everyone and give them Hope, but Why?????
when I pass is this silent from him Why?????????????
then another think thats been Bugging me is how I see
that when U are of position and the Lord uses U they give U the first chairs, and the ones that been there first struggling
together with the pastors for the Vision of the church to come alive, we are not notice
forgive me if I sound like I want att. well I don't all my life
I when trough that in my up bringing were my cousins were better cause they were the smartest of the
family, and we were label as the black sheep's of the family
and here I'm going to church to find a different's in the
way life was back then, and I find my self dealing with the same scenarios, doesn't the Bible teaches us not to make acceptions of people, were is the Godly Beliefs, and Values, it sicking my stomach, see that happened in the House of the Lord, I'm very Angry as a Christian to see this happened,
do U want to know how my Pastors makes me ,like a rag that u use to wipe the table, and then just use it when u need it, again and we were the first ones to star the church and here comes a family of Ministers, with there wifes, &
children's, and they get the first plates, they get all the first privileges, and here I'm cleaning after there mess
I know we got to serve others, but you should see how the pastors treat them they are specialty's, I'm not jealous God Bless them, and may they Grow in Christ, and keep delivering the word of God, But we are forgotten by the church, and by God, I guess I'm so Angry!!It's not suppose to be like that, it suppose to be equality, and justice for all,
seen all this, and Experiencing all this, and not been able to comprehended it, is making me into a Bitter, Sour,Resented,
& Angry,Hurtful Christian
But it is, what it is!!!!!
